The Lonely Traveler

If you wonder
When I will be coming back?
When I will be stopping wander around?

I have no idea, perhaps…

The day when I stop missing you

The day my heart no longer aching when I think of you

The day when I forget I am so in love with you

The day when I forget why do I need to run away

Sowing the seed of L∙O∙V∙E

Few months back, there was one interesting exercise conducted during the workshop I participated. A main word was given and everyone was required to list out 10 words they could relate the word to. The main word was:- LOVE.

‘LOVE’... Perhaps it is one of the tougher life lessons which everyone has to learn. The lesson starts from the time you were born until the time you depart from this world. It exists as fundamental for relationships like family, friendship, lover, belief…etc.

It took me awhile to figure what were the 10words I should put in. If ‘love’ is the seed, what are the nourishments needed and what can I reap from it?! Would it be:

¤ GOD

¤ HUMAN – treat all mankind with love and peace will exists

¤ MOTHER TERESA – representative of the ultimate demonstration of unconditional love

¤ JOY – what you feel when you act out of love

¤ LAUGHTER

¤ TEAR

¤ BALANCE – you need to strike the balance. Too little or too much love, either one will tire your loved ones or will tire your soul

¤ RESPECT

¤ ME – I, me, myself. The 1^st person to fall in love with and the last one that you will never give up loving is you, yourself.

¤ HEART – It is not love if it does not truly come from your heart

For your seed of love, what are your 10 nourishments or fruits that you will reap from it?

Longing

Since the day you left…

The vacant couch has been so cold. It is so alone in the living room with its coldness.

The TV was obsessively playing the movie you love. That black & white movie you used to watch over and over.

The remote control and books are kinda pissed off that you left them behind. They are covering themselves with dust now.

The phone is completely silence now. It refused to ring ever since it lost the language of touch from you.

The floor lamp’s light is on at 745pm everyday still. It has prepared to welcome you home at night.

The tap was dripping the melancholy tears days and nights. It sounds akin to the rhythm of a sad love song.

The Christmas tree was upset in the store room. It knew this will be the place it celebrates the coming Christmas.

I think they are longing for you…

Longing for you to come back…

Love, me

p.s. Happy Birthday

The End of Chapter I

Thanks for the paths we crossed
Numberless moments of togetherness

packed in 6 boxes of memories
May you rest in peace

My dearest

Soundtracks

If life is a movie of its own, these are the soundtracks of my movie. Songs that captured our moments, songs that represented our feelings, songs that made me thought of you…

You don’t know my name – the trip where the rains never stop, and we were caught in the world of our own. The one you loved – the first ‘summer’, the first ‘winter’, the memory of me loving you. Nobody knows – under the starry starry night, there were dreams about the future. Knowing that distance always divides us but it can never separate us. Fly me to the moon – the first time I cried very badly, after you cancelled our second date. It must have been love - those endless nights that I cried myself to sleep. Sadness had been the black hole and I was fallen inside. What a wonderful world – moments of you taught me patiently, loving me unconditionally, opened my eyes to this wonderful world. Jika kau bercinta lagi – sat up in the night. Middle of the night.. I wished you to love with your whole-hearted. I love your smile – you turned around and told me: got it! You were so cute! Everything changing – wishing you were here, right here, right now, in the totally strange world. Things in life – breathing the air, tasting the foods… been to the places where you left your footprints. Feeling you, years after… Total escape of the heart – we turned to each others, burst out laughing. It was sign to change, before things are falling apart. Fix you – just when I thought it was over, it wasn’t…. actually. Whether the end is the beginning or the beginning is the end, sometimes you really won’t know. Gemilang – Segalanya, bagaikan impian yang ternyata... that was what I thought, for quite some times I thought I was right. 無需要太多 – Saw you on blue stripe for the first time on that breezy Tuesday morning. You seemed relaxed and told me you were fine. For many many times when I recalled, I was still glad and relief that you told me. Say we’ll be together – when was the last time we kiss? How does it feels? That favourite apple green t-shirt of mine, I had kept it somewhere in the dark. 有空來坐坐 - you told me you’ve found our song, the song that described us the best. Couldn’t help but weeping till the eyes were swollen after listened to it for the whole night. Silly me!

Sailing

Sailing... in the middle of the sea

I found my long lost tranquility

Every sunset brings the promise of a new dawn

Bless in disguise

There were times
I tried to make things worked
I tried to be the best I could
I tried to believe and have faith
I thought we would last

But finally
It took me years to understand
You were just the traveler
In my journey of life

Never expected this
But when the time came
We just have to say goodbye

Happy Feet

Wanted to try the fish spa for a long time. Thanks to the birthday girls, finally got the chance during their birthday celebration. Ya know, not easy to gather everyone these days since no longer working together and each of us are busy with our stuff.

How was it?! We were giggling and excited like child when we put our feet down the pool. It might look scary & disgusting for those who haven’t tried it. But we had a really good time and the skin gets smoother after the 1/2 hour session – indeed.

Bee my valentine...

Some said they love too little

Some said they love too much

I said I didn't know

Until I found you...

Are you ready?

It's a brand new year!

Oh yeah, it’s already the 10th day of 2008! Time flies when you are busy or when you don’t really pay attention to it.

Last year was a turbulent year for me. Life was slightly challenges with frustration and heartbroken situations. Lessons learnt along the way, perhaps not all, but at least few that God (the real ones! not the ‘one’ we used to make fun of!) wants me to know at the moment:

• You know who you can rely on or who is your friend when they meant what they said. Or they just simply stand by your when you needed help. They stepped in when the moments you felt disappointed about someone, fed up about all those promises that made but never came true! They taught you the value of friendship. It’s not about ‘saying it’, but simply ‘just be’. (I’m not going to mention your name just in case others may feel jealous on your… thank you ya!)


• Living in other’s orbits just couldn’t work and never meant for you. It’s time to look within and get back to your own orbit!
  

By this year, there are few things I put in plan:

• World peace! Perhaps we can contribute our part by putting efforts to understand others better. Especially we have the chance when we are living in the multi races country.
  


• Less worries, enjoy more! Wasted much times worried the outcomes but forgot to enjoy during the journey in the past. Living in the moment counts…
  


• Let enrich the blossom relationships and walk out from the relationship that no longer serve a meaning in my life!
  


• DIGITAL CAMERA! In case you want to buy me one, SLR type will really surprise me…

Wishing 2008 to be a better year for me and for you too… Gambateh ya, my dear friends!

Happy New Year 2008!!

Thanks for visiting my blog, still in the midst of managing my first blog ever…
Anyway, happy New Year 2008!